Why My Heart Breaks for the Hopeless

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It’s Thursday night and, as usual, the church ladies cover each other in prayer before heading to the clubs for outreach. But this time, I am attending a different strip club.

These girls actually fit the stereotype of a Hollywood dancer: beautiful, young and thin. Customers are constantly inside, and it’s nothing short of surprising to see two girls entertain a heterosexual couple.

During Bible study, we discussed Psalm 91 – the protection over God’s people, not just His creation, but the divine protection over those who have a relationship with Jesus Christ. This Psalm isn’t stating that Christians will never have trouble head their way, but it’s the promise that on Heaven or on earth He has provided and will provide a way for Him to be our Refuge.

I’m being introduced to girls left and right – some are on the toilet, and some are changing from civilian clothes to work clothes right in front of me.

Alright, we are in the club. I’m being introduced to girls left and right – some are on the toilet, and some are changing from civilian clothes to work clothes right in front of me. ACT NORMAL.

The night goes by, conversations are flowing and I am feeling a bit more relaxed in this new environment – when all of a sudden this happens:

“You have to go upstairs to meet the man,” the security guard says to A.
(Going upstairs meant that the sexual favors would go to the next level).

“No…No…No,” she replies as her eyes get bigger, and her long hair is flying everywhere as she persistently shakes her head “no.”

“You have to go upstairs to meet the man,” the security guard says to A.

“But the man is waiting for you upstairs. Don’t worry we will protect you,” says the security guard, ignoring the fact that A is completely petrified. And at this point, A can’t even respond. She just keeps shaking her head in fear.

The bodyguard then explains how he is joking around and she really doesn’t need to meet the man. She bursts into tears, lays her head into the corner of the security guards chest and weeps. The security guard and A leave the dressing room and head outside so she can pull herself back together.

Ok. Wait, what?

The reason why A did not want to go to the upstairs room was because she had been violated by the patron moments earlier. Prior to the security guard walking into the dressing room, I noticed her scurry in, grab a cigarette from her locker and just slump into a chair.

The hand holding her cigarette was visibly shaking and her eyes lacked emotion as she stared into space. I asked her if she was ok, but lying through her teeth, A said, “I’m fine.”

During this whole ordeal, I kept thinking about Psalm 91. But A was not a Christian so the promise of protection could not really apply to her.

Besides the fact that judgement, hell and wrath are real, these are people who are missing out on a relationship with Jesus.
To dwell with God is to be in communion with God and sadly, A, along with many other girls and patron’s are not. IS YOUR HEART NOT BREAKING RIGHT NOW?

Besides the fact that judgment, hell and wrath are real, these are people who are missing out on a relationship with Jesus. Contrary to what A’s security guard thinks, the biggest issue is not whether or not he can keep a patron from being a pervert, but the biggest issue is SIN and Jesus Christ already solved that problem. He paid the price, defeated death and now stands in the gap between humanity and God.

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Comments 1

  1. Girl, this blog is wonderful & truly says it all & well as to why it’s a blessing & a privilege to have our hearts break with what breaks God’s. Thanks for sharing truth so well

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